I know that I shouldn’t be doing this to myself… but every time im left alone, I cant stop thinkn about yu…
Sitting here on my bed, looking up at my wall… reading my lot of poems that remind me of yu…
I know it’s been months now and I AM over you! Lol… but it’s just the little things that makes me smile, cry and miss being with u!

Yesterday would be 5 months if we were still together! >_< lol I rember little things ok!! O_o hehehe *sigh* 5 months has felt like forver..more like 1 year !! >_<” this half year has been a crayzee ride!! Some moments I will never forget, but some I wish never happened. I don’t regret getting to kno ‘him’, coz it was fun… while it lasted I guess =X and blEH! WHER IS MY TIME mACHINE!!! Lolzz >_<” if I had one and wasn’t allowed to change the future, I tink I would keep rewinding and replayn the times I spent alone with him.. those moments when the clocks seemed to stop ticking and nothing else in my miserable life mattered… as long as I had him x_O sigh~ yes maybe I must admit- I was slightly love sick! Hahaha x_X ..
But I guess, the past cannot be changed – whats done is done right?! –
“must move on, find someone new, he not worth ur tears, there are many more fishies out ther inda sea!!” lolzz.. yesss I heard u the first time ppl!! HAHAH >_<” im not that stoopid ok!! Hrmm I appreciate ur concern.. but its not that easy sometimes ok lolz…and it jus times like this..when im all by myself and the weather is like.. pretty much..perfect =) lol hrmm and yer probably at times when im boredz and feelin like blehhh >_<” yarhh* onli these times do I tink abt little things in life !

hrmm.. the past few nights I have been talkn to my fwens over msn abt this topic! And *randomz* >_< I sed… hrmm.. you know wut I miss sooo much atm?? (lolz) *sigh* kissin my ex !! loLZzz =X *sighz* he tasted like apple^^coz he loved his fruits and espeshially apples! =) and one night when he was over, he ate my apple lollies and I *muakzxd* him =P lolzz and he tasted like apple!! ^_^ hehehe and smelt like vanilla =D *sighz*
coz wen we wer together, we went shoppin once and we walkd into the body shop!! And he was being stoopid and smellin all the stuffs inda shop..hehe and we came across the vanilla section! And ther was this body mist that smelt like vanilla!! And omgosh it smelt sooooooooo gooooodz!!! Ahahaha >_<” it was soo sweet – “good enof to eat”!! *smiles* and I sprayed it on his neck =P and it smelt yummmiiii *big grin* hrmm newasie a few days later I bought a bottle for him..hrmm like.. just for fun kinda thingy =P heheh and everytime he came to see me he would always wear the vanilla ^^ *sigh* so now everytime is mell vanilla =D reminds me of him >_< *sighz* some of my fwens think I am crayzeee!!! Lolz… they askn me whuy im still holdin on when it jus makes me sad and oso after all the crap that he put me thru..!! =/ hrmm.. welzz…I know how much he has put me thruu *errhemm!! first hand experience here!! LOLZz* bleh! That boi broke my heart more than once!! x_O *sighz* but I guess I would rather be fwens wit him then never talk to him agen..hrmm soo.. – forgive and forget?! – I only keep the happy memories of me and him in my head and I onli think of these things at times like this!! Lolzz >_<”
sighhhh I miss havn a bf!! To hav someone ther for yu whenever u need a hug and kiss! Hahah >_<” siigh someone to talk to .. a shoulder to lean on when ur down !! =/ sigh…

“how do I say hello, when I just wana talk to uu…
how do I say you’re beautiful when I cant take my eyes off you!
I dun wana say anything, coz I juz wana impress you….” – usher, how do I say…

*sigh* its like, sometimes… instead of just a hello or a wave… I just wana walk up to him and hug and kiss him like I used to =X I miss those times soooo much!! Bleh *tears* sigh~~
I miss his cute, cheeeky-asss smile he would hav on his face after he kisses me *sighz*
I miss wwatchin him fall asleep coz lol he is sooooooo adorably cute when he is sleeeping!!! LOL *shush* Don’t gET anY iDEAaas!!!!! LOLll *sighz* >_<”
I miss all those goodnight kisses under the mooonlight… the nights when he tucked me into bed…
I miss huggin him coz he was nice and tall [190cm] =P *perfect fo mee I tell u!! lolzzz* coz when I hugged him my head would be near his shoulder and sighhh…I juz miss him…
*tear*

“Every time this day comes by
I find myself asking … whuy!?
Why did you have to leave me and break my heart?
Did you ever love me? Even at the start?

I wonder what I did wrong to loose you that day…
Because I miss you so much in every single way!
Like those long endless nights we touched…
Those moments I miss so much!
Your sweet and warm smile
That made me believe that all of life was worth while.

Every time this day passes by
I find myself with tears in my eyes
Coz I still miss you till this day
Hoping for a mirical that you will walk my way…” ~~[241104]

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